Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Shadow: A Persona 4 Oneshot

A/N: This story was done for an English descriptive writing in class. There were three topics, and the topic I chose was ‘describe a person that is trustworthy/sinister’. Even though we were only asked to pick one of the characteristics, if possible, we could talk about a person who seems trustworthy, but is actually sinister. Our teacher also told us that we could describe a character from a story…and this just seems to scream Shadow Yosuke and Yosuke, so this is it.
This story is told in Yu Narukami's POV.
As usual, I own nothing. Shin Megami Tensei: Persona 4 belongs to the AWESOME Atlus.
Summary: Yu ponders about Shadows, and it brought him back to his thoughts regarding his partner's Shadow.
Characters: Yu Narukami/Souji Seta, Yosuke Hanamura
Rating: K+. I had to tone down the language and edit some of the speech timings and length to fit it in the 'barely over three pages' limit our teacher set...and is 'hellhole' a curse word? I was using it to describe a horribly unpleasant place, so I don't think it warrants for a T rating...
            What do you think would the personification of the deepest, darkest corners of your heart look like? Would it look like a demon, or would it look like something else entirely? Would it look like…would it look like your own self?
            It truly shocked me when I saw another figure stepping out from one of the dark corners of this strange world’s rendition of the liquor store of Saki Konishi’s family. It was just earlier that Saki-senpai’s death –no, murder- was announced, and as it was, Yosuke was devastated by the death of his crush and dragged me back into this world, which Yosuke, Chie, and I suspected had something to do with the murder of Saki-senpai.
            Yosuke had run into this world’s rendition of her family’s liquor store and heard some…confessions of Saki-senpai, saying that she hated Yosuke and thought he was annoying. Yosuke denied it all, and then here we are, looking at the figure stepping out of the corner.
            At first sight, this person seemed to look a lot like the fawn-haired, hazel-eyed teen beside me. He was wearing exactly the same clothing as Yosuke: the standard school uniform consisting of a long-sleeved, button-up shirt with a popped collar and a white shirt under it, long, black pants, and red headphones with a black band hanging around his neck, his own personal touch. The only difference was that the other Yosuke was not wearing the thick, orange-framed glasses a creature, specifically, a Shadow calling himself Teddie, gave him before we entered this…hellhole.
            Maybe, just maybe…I can trust this person. Not all Shadows are the same, as Teddie is living proof of it. Maybe, this Shadow isn’t out to kill us, just like the Shadows did to Mayumi Amano and Saki-senpai, from what I assume…if he really was a Shadow.
            Even so, the other Yosuke gave out an aura unlike Yosuke’s. While Yosuke had a kind, trusting, and joyful aura, the other Yosuke had a sinister, dark, and distrusting aura. It even showed in their mannerisms. I had always been a master of observing people, and I noticed that Yosuke usually had a smile that seems accepting of everything, and makes you feel like you could actually…trust him. The other Yosuke, however, had a dark, sinister smirk plastered on his face, and it could give everyone chills just looking at it, like he has some ulterior motive behind everything…
            Perhaps, what was most chilling about the other Yosuke was his yellow eyes…the eyes that seemed to gleam in this dark, eerie room…and the dark, visible aura, spreading around the room…it’s quite sickening, actually.
            “The only reason why you wanted to enter this world is so that you felt bored living in the town! You wanted to feel excited, wanted to feel known, so you took the first opportunity to try and prove yourself, and that opportunity happened to be the murder of Saki-senpai!” the other Yosuke cackled, his voice distorted.
            Yosuke’s eyes went wide as he denied everything that the other had said. The other only continued with his speech, his eyes growing madder with each word, the dark energies surrounding him seeming to spread and grow in size.
            “You put on a show of being carefree and happy-go-lucky ‘cause you’re so terrified of being alone. The more the merrier, right? You can’t handle the solitude of being alone!” The other Yosuke continued. That seemed to be the last straw for Yosuke. He then shouted in a loud, defiant voice, “Shut up! That’s not me. That’s not me AT ALL!”
            …Wait. Yosuke was…faking it? He only puts on his jovial persona so he will not be alone? He’s…scared of being alone?
            As I was pondering this, the other Yosuke had transformed into another creature…one that was a Shadow. It had two halves, namely, the human half and the frog-like half. The human half was all black, save for what seemed like two yellow stars for its eyes. Its hands were yellow, and it had a billowing, red scarf around his neck. Its bottom half, the frog-like half, had a camouflage pattern around its body, save for the hands and face. Its hands were black in color with yellow ‘nails’ on it, and its face was black, with two red slits for eyes, and a yellow, savage, grinning mouth, full of teeth.
            “I am the Shadow, the true self. I’ll get rid of everything that bores me…starting with YOU!!!” The Shadow screamed out as it charged at us.
            My suspicions were confirmed. It seemed like the other Yosuke was really a Shadow…and it seems like I am forced to fight it, if I were to protect the real Yosuke, the one with the kind, trustworthy attitude. And so, I called out my own Persona, the one I had used to protect Chie and Yosuke the other day…Izanagi.
            The battle between Izanagi and Shadow Yosuke raged on as I tried to get Yosuke to accept his Shadow…since apparently, a person’s Shadow is the personification of someone’s deepest, darkest corners of his heart, according to Teddie. As Izanagi landed the finishing blow on Shadow Yosuke, the real Yosuke seemed to have a resolution as he approached his fallen Shadow, who had reverted back to its human form.
            “I’ve always known that Saki-senpai hated me. But, I never had the courage to accept it. And it’s true…I did feel bored in this town.” He sighed. “Sometimes, even I feel like I put my foot in my mouth a lot. But that’s just who I am, huh? I guess I just have to accept it.” Shadow Yosuke looked up at Yosuke as he kneeled down beside him, lifting the Shadow’s face to look straight at Yosuke.
            “I am you…and you are me.” Yosuke had said that time, smiling at his Shadow. Shadow Yosuke looked slightly shocked, before he gave a small smile as he closed his eyes in acknowledgement. This time, the smile was neither malicious nor sinister; in fact, the smile now was a calm and accepting one. Bright, white lights surround Shadow Yosuke as he began to transform.
            When the lights have faded, a Persona stood in Shadow Yosuke’s place. It had a black head with two ‘ears’ above its head, with one red slit in each ‘ear’. It had two yellow stars for its eyes. It wore white overalls with a camouflage pattern on the edges of the pants and sleeves. The overalls had a yellow, v-shaped collar, and was red on the top of the overalls. Its hands were much like a human’s, though it was covered with white gloves, having a camouflage pattern under it. It also wore a red, billowing scarf around its neck.
            The Persona turned into a blue card, bearing a picture of a flame, surrounded by a pair of eyes above it, a pair of hands below it, cupping the flame, and the symbol for ‘infinity’ above the eyes. There was also the Roman numeral for the number ‘1’ on the bottom of the card.
            I then remembered my own card, bearing the picture of a laughing jester about to fall from a cliff, a dog trailing closely behind him, colored grey, and bearing the number ‘0’ on the bottom of the card. If my card was ‘0’ and Yosuke’s card was ‘1’…then are we dealing with Tarot cards right now? If that is the case, then my Persona must be a ‘Fool’, while Yosuke’s Persona must be a ‘Magician’.
            Frankly, I can see the symbolism between the cards, my own self, Yosuke, and Shadow Yosuke. I came to Inaba for a new experience, much like the Fool in Tarot divination. Yosuke comes off as a self-confident person, much like the Magician in Tarot divination. Shadow Yosuke, however, may have power, but he is also cruel and misuses his power. It is the meaning of a reversed Magician card in Tarot divination.
            “So this is Jiraiya…my own Persona…my power.” Yosuke had his hand over his heart. He then proposed that we could use our strength to save people before they got killed in this world…which I whole-heartedly agreed to.
            He kept that promise, for he was a trustworthy person. We gained more members…people that we have saved in this world of Shadows in time. We became known as the Investigation Team…
            And to think this all started because I saved my best friend, my partner, from his own darkness.
A/N: Frankly, I think this is one of my better works, even though it is not very true to the story...

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Persona videos being taken down?!

Shinjiro Aragaki died on the 4th of October, during the Dark Hour...and that day also happens to be the bonding camp at school...

Pssh, yeah. Bonding in our own groups, more like. -__-"

So, now... IGCSE Bahasa Indonesia sudah mendekat.

Okay, that sucked and failed.

We need to use proper and formal Bahasa Indonesia in the exam, something I am extremely weak in.

On a side note...


A few weeks ago, I wanted to listen to more songs from Persona 4 and 3. I bookmarked the playlist created by Slayer0, because he uploads songs of good quality, and even has the Voice Mix Arranges. Awesome, really. But, then...friggin' Youtube says that the playlist 'does not exist'. Needless to say, I got pretty pissed off. Imagine what happens when a cranky Chie Satonaka finds out that a certain Yosuke Hanamura entered her in a beauty pageant. Yeah. I was THAT pissed.

So, then, I did some digging around and found out that Slayer0's account was suspended because of copyright claims from this Russian person on Youtube.

I did some more digging around (thank you Google) and found out that this person is a 'sketch comedian and news presenter'. She (said person is a female) claims copyright for a number of Persona soundtracks and gameplay videos. Searching her name online with the word 'Persona' brings up a link to a website called 'Persona Stars'.

What. The. Heck.

How can a RUSSIAN person claim copyright for a FRANCHISE (from JAPAN, no less) that came out BEFORE this 'Persona Stars' website was even on the internet?!

It's not just Persona videos too that got hit by copyright claims, from what I have seen in the NeoGAF forum thread regarding this issue. Catherine, Shin Megami Tensei IV, as well as Shin Megami Tensei: Nocturne... Videos about these games are getting copyright claims as well.

My reaction? Youtube needs to get their sh*t straight. Pardon my rough language, but it must be said. Do they even do any research before deciding to suspend a channel for a suspected copyright?!

Because of this one person, a bunch of accounts have been suspended. Slayer0, TheUltimateOneJPS, PhoenonX, and AsukaCrystalRose, among others, have had their accounts suspended. Song covers have also been flagged for copyright, from what I have heard. EVEN the anime opening theme, Sky's the Limit, was flagged, as the video, taken from Youtube, was taken down and was said to be 'not found' in Megami Tensei Wikia. Only ONE song from the anime was safe, from what I have seen, not counting the songs that came from the video game, and it was the second opening, Key Plus Words. Beauty of Destiny and Sky's the Limit were pretty much screwed, especially the full versions of the original.

Besides, think about it. If this lady wants to screw Atlus over, why doesn't she just flag Atlus for copyright?! Yeesh!

Besides...she's messing with the wrong fandom. She just made every Atlus fan, particularly fans of the Shin Megami Tensei franchise, extremely pissed off, me included. I mean, I heard that the Hiimdaisy comic dubs are down! WHAT!

Atlus needs to know about this. This is going too far!

Sources: NeoGAF forums (http://www.neogaf.com/forum/showthread.php?t=672653), VG247 (http://www.vg247.com/2013/09/09/persona-videos-being-taken-off-youtube-by-russian-sketch-actress/)

Sunday, September 8, 2013

AFA ID 2013!!!

Okay, so my cousin joined the cosplay club in her school, and she brought her sister and I to the Anime Festival Asia, held at the Plenary Hall or something. (Bandung born and raised, so I have little to no idea of how Jakarta is oriented). And HOLY MOLY IT WAS AWESOME.

It's THE anime event of the year here in Indonesia, so the line to get in the exhibition was already crazy long. We managed to get in by 'joki tiket', where we buy a ticket at a higher price from someone who already bought tickets by bulk in the first place.

Once we were inside...WHOA. So many cosplayers I can't even. And the anime merchandise... THAT YUKIKO FIGURINE WAS Rp 900,000,-!!!!! And that smaller Jiraiya, Izanagi, Yukiko, and Yu figurines were Rp 850,000,-! My budget is only Rp 750,000,-.... T_T So sad, I know.

I was identifying characters left and right, and my cousin and I started counting the amount of Hatsune Miku cosplayers. We counted at least 12...

There was a concert, but we bought the exhibition ticket, so we didn't watch it. So, we just took pictures with cosplayers, though I was too shy and only took pictures with 4 cosplayers... I didn't take my camera out, so I didn't take a picture of everything, I only took it out when I wanted to take a picture with a cosplayer. So sad...

The characters I saw were...
Bossun - Sket Dance
Minato Arisato -Persona 3 (NEARLY took a picture with him, but I was too shy...)
Hibiki Kuze -Devil Survivor 2 (There were 3 of them, and one even brought Byakko!)
KAITO -Vocaloid (There were 2 that I saw, I think.)
Gakupo Kamui -Vocaloid
Ragna the Bloodedge -BlazBlue (Only saw T_T)
Hazama -BlazBlue (Wanted to take a picture with him, but Hazama is scary...)
Len Kagamine -Vocaloid (There were 3 that I saw.)
Rin Kagamine -Vocaloid (Only saw 2. I wonder why?)
Miku Hatsune -Vocaloid (Like I said, at least 12 Mikus were there.)
Yuno Gasai -Mirai Nikki
Yosuke Hanamura -Persona 4 (My personal favorite, actually. Because Captain Ressentiment is that awesome.)
Naoto Shirogane -Persona 4 (Awesome cosplay too! I loved the MegaTen cosplays.)
Yata Misaki -K Project (My cousin's friend and I took a picture with his cosplayer, and the cosplayer was AWESOME.)
Killua Zoldyck -Hunter X Hunter (Was with Naoto's cosplayer when I met them.)
Lightning Farron -Final Fantasy 13 (A LOT of people were taking a picture with her. Wow.)
Thanatos -Persona 3 (I was shocked. Mainly because I was playing Persona 3 and was summoning Thanatos when the Thanatos cosplayer showed up.)
Saber -Fate/Stay Night
Teddie -Persona 4 (Wanted to take a picture with him, but we were on separate floors.)
Kuroko Tetsuya -Kuroko no Basket
Aomine Daiki -Kuroko no Basket
Kise Ryouta -Kuroko no Basket
L -Death Note
Slenderman -Slender: The 7 Pages (WTF. I nearly ran from him, but my cousin took a picture with him...)
England -Axis Powers Hetalia
South Korea -Axis Powers Hetalia (HOW DO YOU MAKE THE CURL GODDAMMIT?!)
China -Axis Powers Hetalia
Taiwan -Axis Powers Hetalia
Hong Kong -Axis Powers Hetalia
Xion -Kingdom Hearts

One of the highlights was the Maid and Butler Cafe. It was pretty nice, the food's pretty good, and the butlers all looked good. The 2 hour wait was worth it, apparently. And my cousins took a picture with the butlers. I NEARLY did, but pulled out at the last minute...and after that, we met the Yosuke cosplayer, and it all went downhill because I let my imagination get the better of me... He's my favorite Persona character, for crying out loud! If only he got the kunais... And if only the Minato cosplayer was holding his Evoker and doing that pose when he summons his Persona...

There was the Animax booth with a cosplay or something. I was at Sony Music when my cousin and her friend were there. There were a lot of people wearing the Yasogami High jacket, makes me want one as well! T_T Though everyone wearing those jackets were guys.

It's too bad the characters weren't in-character when I met them... How I knew? Captain Ressentiment wouldn't be so silent if he was in character. Not that I'm complaining. Seeing a Yosuke cosplayer definitely made my month-make that my year.

I bought something for my friend (I promised), as well as cute Naoto and Kanji pin, from the shops in the lower floor. There wasn't any Persona 3 merchandise, and there was no Yu and Yosuke pin... (cries in corner) Well, at least I got Naoto! She's my favorite Persona 4 female character, favorite female Persona character goes to Aigis. I love her so much.

I don't know how nitrogen ice-cream works, but it's pretty good. Yeah...I need an explanation... Time to consult Google...I think...

Oh, and to answer the question about the Persona fanbase... It's quite big here. I'm serious.

And now for something completely random...

"AAAAGGGHH!!! OOOHHHH! NOOOOOO!!!"
"What?! Huh?! What?!"
"Oh, man, I CAN'T HOLD IT ANYMORE!!!"
"GEEZ, THAT WAS IT?! What are you doing, you can't just pee here, in someone's room! Narukami, would you please stop him?!"
"? Why would I do that?"
"Huh?"

-Yosuke expresses his surprise in the most eloquent way possible.
"I HAVE TO PEE!!!!!!!"
(after many 'I have to pee's later...)
"You guys, I HAVE TO PEE. SO BAD. I'M GONNA PEE. RIGHT. NOW!!!!"
(awkward silence)
"OKAY NEVER MIND."

Oh Yosuke, you tickle my funny bone. XD

I'll probably add more details as I remember them and probably upload pictures of my cousins and I, you never know... I was only there on the 7th of September, but I'll try to remember as much as possible.

Well, see you later!

Thursday, September 5, 2013

What's happening to my life...

What's going on with my life?! First, we're taking the IGCSEs. Okay, I can live with that. Then, we have Additional Math on top of the usual Math (Extended Math). Fine, Math is one of my favorite subjects after all. Then, our teacher suddenly up and tells us that we're finishing the book for Additional Math, which is supposed to be finished in two years, mind you, in 10 WEEKS. Oh man. Then, on the FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL, we're starting with one of the most confusing topics: Differentiation. Sure...though it's getting crazier... THEN we're taking the Bahasa IGCSEs this year. Urk...

Is this seriously the start of the freaking school year?! Not to mention that we're taking pure Physics and pure Biology...and more...oh man... We're kicking this year off in full gear, and we're not going to stop until after the IGCSEs. Our school days are 7 hours now, 8 on Mondays and Fridays because of the Bahasa IGCSEs. And to think that I'm the only surviving senior member of the Math Club among the people in my class... I think I've got a date with Death later this year, and I'm NOT talking about Ryoji.

Funny thing is, after a while of being battered by homework every single day, you eventually just shrug it off like it's nothing. During the start of the school year, I was panicking since I was scared that I wouldn't finish my homework in time. Now, I'm just like 'Oh, new homework? For tomorrow? Aces, chief. Let's see if I can get my lesson teacher to let me out early. If not, I'll just reduce my relaxing time, or finish a part of the homework at school.' It's just been 3 weeks, but STILL...

And, of course, there's the issues with my hobbies. I've recently watched Persona 4 The Animation and... I'm sorry, I need to rant a little. Spoiler alert!

Dammit, Saki Konishi! Yousuke CLEARLY cared for you and fell in love with you, and you didn't seem to care about him, even having the gall to call him 'annoying'! You should listen to how Yousuke talks about you, Saki. He's talking like you're the best woman in the world! Yeesh! He was DEVASTATED when you were murdered, for crying out loud! He's a really nice guy when you get to know him, though he can be insensitive sometimes... BUT, that's what makes him who he is! (shot, otherwise rant would take too long)...and yes, I remember the Hiimdaisy comic dub more than the actual anime, so sorry for any inconsistencies with the explanation. (blasted by Elizabeth's 9999-damage Megidolaon)

Sigh... I'm sorry, it's just that people who are like Saki get me riled up a little, though even THAT may be an understatement. It's one of the reasons why I like guys such as Yousuke, since when he loves someone, he LOVES that person and stays loyal to that person no matter what. Yousuke is just like Persona 3's Junpei, only, I'm sorry, but this is my opinion, Yousuke is better-looking compared to Junpei. Just saying! It's the headphones! I like guys with headphones, dammit! Also, I can only determine whether a guy is...erm...hot...when I get his personality. The guys who are always loyal to their friends always drew me in for some reason...even though they're usually handed the short end of the stick.

On another note, my cousins invited me to go to an anime convention or something in Jakarta this Saturday! Nice change of pace from the gut-busting work we were given for the past few days. Natch, weeks. Since there's an extreme lack of events like these in Bandung, well, I'm excited. Either that, or I don't know where anime conventions are held here in Bandung. I'm looking for Persona 4 cosplayers and merchandise! See if their cosplays are similar to the characters... I blame searching for pictures of the characters and seeing AMAZING cosplays of them. One Yu Narukami cosplay was...really similar to the dude. And that one Squall Leonhart cosplayer was also amazing... It's also a chance for me to find out if the Persona fanbase here in Indonesia is big...since I'm the only person who is an avid RPG gamer in the whole entire school, mainly because I don't stick with a genre of games, I play a lot of different genres: RPG, Fighting, Rhythm Action, Puzzle, Strategy... But, I tend to stick with RPGs.

That really took a lot out of my heart. This blog is, perhaps, the only place where I'm truly allowed to be myself...

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

My Song Interpretations: Take Your Way

Ah, Shin Megami Tensei Devil Survivor 2. A game that is so FRUSTRATINGLY HARD, yet is extremely deep in plot, like most MegaTen games. Basically, all MegaTen games try to show that even the tiniest of choices can alter your fate, or, sometimes, the fate of someone else. Devil Survivor 2 has an anime adaptation: Devil Survivor 2 The Animation. The lyrics of the opening of the anime is so beautiful... Here are the translated lyrics, from http://atashi.wordpress.com/2013/05/04/devil-survivor-2-the-animation-opening-theme-take-your-way/, but I phrased it so it sounds more like a story.

The questions that I have seen in front of my eyes were always vague to me, and I never thought that something would change because of those words.

If the tiny bond between us desires it, you can't lose sight of your dream, even though it's incomplete, and then shout out...

With a tear-choked voice, I hug your shoulders as you cry your eyes out. Though you feel lost and you're suffering, you chose this world. It's something that only you will grasp, and is also something that only you can wish for. The voice calling out will never cease now, until light engulfs the future.

Suddenly, all the time, choices will block our way. Without waiting for an answer, they bring us to a tomorrow we never wanted.

If I can erase just a little bit of your sadness, I won't reflect on the scars on my body, but instead, shout out...

With a tear-choked voice, I hug your shoulders as you stand still. Even if the future is distorted, it's still the future you chose. It's something that only you will grasp, and is also something that only you can wish for. The voice calling out will never cease now, until light is drawn into the world.

Don't try to avoid the pain. Don't keep the answer in your heart. Don't be afraid of losing things, after all, you're never alone. Though it's faint, you can hear the melody we created, right? I'll always, yes, always, keep holding your hand.

Trembling with a hoarse voice, the song that will carry us to tomorrow, will echo into someone's dream.

With a tear-choked voice, I hug your shoulders as you cry your eyes out. Even if you feel lost and you're suffering, you still chose this world. It's something that only you will grasp, and is also something that only you can wish for. The voice calling out will never cease out, until the light engulfs the future.

Now can you guys see why I love this song? The tune itself sounds so upbeat and happy, not to mention catchy, but when I learned about the lyrics, I can't help but tear up a little. It definitely tells us the story of Devil Survivor 2, though only those who have played the game could link it with the game. The song could also represent life itself...

'The questions that I have seen in front of my eyes were always vague to me, and I never thought that something would change because of those words.' Isn't it that what we think is irrelevant right now could become something so much more in the future? Isn't it that just one question could change our view on the world immediately?

'If the tiny bond between us desires it, you can't lose sight of your dream, even though it's incomplete, and then shout out...' We all have a dream. We can't lose sight of it, even though our dream is incomplete.

'With a tear-choked voice, I hug your shoulders as you cry your eyes out. Though you feel lost and you're suffering, you chose this world. It's something that only you will grasp, and is also something that only you can wish for. The voice calling out will never cease now, until light engulfs the future.' The choices we make could affect many. In the Devil Survivor games, the side you choose will affect the world in itself, and also affect the friendships you've made. For example, siding with the demons is Devil Survivor 1 will make Yuzu, Keisuke and Midori leave the party in anger, but Naoya and Kaido will join the party. The world would be thrown into chaos should this path be chosen. Only we can choose the side we want to take. In a way, it's also similar to life, since one tiny choice could affect many things. Only we can wish for the things we choose, and if we made a wrong choice, there will come a chance to correct the mistake.

 'Suddenly, all the time, choices will block our way. Without waiting for an answer, they bring us to a tomorrow we never wanted.' Every day, there will be choices, and we will have to choose among them. Sometimes, the choices begin to act on themselves, and it would make us end up in situations that we don't want to be a part of.

'If I can erase just a little bit of your sadness, I won't reflect on the scars on my body, but instead, shout out...' Generally, this shows that helping people could help us divert our attention from our own pain and sadness.

'With a tear-choked voice, I hug your shoulders as you stand still. Even if the future is distorted, it's still the future you chose. It's something that only you will grasp, and is also something that only you can wish for. The voice calling out will never cease now, until light is drawn into the world.' Our future is ours alone, and is something that only we could ask for...no matter what.

'Don't try to avoid the pain. Don't keep the answer in your heart. Don't be afraid of losing things, after all, you're never alone. Though it's faint, you can hear the melody we created, right? I'll always, yes, always, keep holding your hand.' We can't avoid fate, no matter what. Sadness, anger, despair, EVERYTHING will catch up to us at one point, so why bother avoiding it? The answer in your heart could be the answer that solves all our problems, so why bother keeping it in your heart? Also, why should we be afraid of losing things? It doesn't matter who you are; you're not alone. There will always be someone ready to catch us when we fall...

'Trembling with a hoarse voice, the song that will carry us to tomorrow, will echo into someone's dream.' The choices that we make, the things we wish for, the things that lead us to tomorrow, it can affect the life of someone else.

'With a tear-choked voice, I hug your shoulders as you cry your eyes out. Even if you feel lost and you're suffering, you still chose this world. It's something that only you will grasp, and is also something that only you can wish for. The voice calling out will never cease out, until the light engulfs the future.' We're never alone. Someone will always support the choices we make, since only we can make that choice...

This probably isn't that much of a good interpretation, but it's the best I can do with my limited skills. I would love to hear your interpretations of this song, though. Tell me in the comments, please!

Monday, June 17, 2013

Well, that was just LOW.

So, I was browsing the web when I happened to stumble upon the new consoles from the 3 biggest players in the video game console industry. Nintendo has the Wii U, Sony has the PS4, while Microsoft has the Xbox One.
Now, we've been getting a whole lot of hype for them, that's for sure. All the big players of the video game industry are making games for them! For the Wii U, we're going to have the newest Super Smash Bros installment (Which has Mega Man, an Animal Crossing villager and the Wii Fit coach as playable characters! Let's hope Earthbound gets more characters. That game is SO underrated.), Shin Megami Tensei X Fire Emblem (Now, how will that work out, I wonder? Pretty interesting concept, though.), Mario Kart 8... For the PS4, there will be Kingdom Hearts 3 (FINALLY! I'm hoping Squall, Cloud and Tidus are in it, along with other Final Fantasy and TWEWY characters.), Final Fantasy 15 (About time Final Fantasy gets more realistic and starts going away from the usual hack-and-slash weapons. This game has FPS elements, so let's see if it will work out in the end. Which, considering that it IS Square Enix, they will do a very good job in it.), Metal Gear Solid 5... Xbox One has a new Call of Duty game, along with Kingdom Hearts 3 and Final Fantasy 15.
However, I do not really like how Microsoft has been marketing their product. I've seen some news about a person wearing a Microsoft shirt, going around at Best Buy stores, trying to convince people that are looking at the Wii U or are participating in the Wii U events to buy the Xbox One. It is generally thought of that this person is a Microsoft employee. Or perhaps, really a Microsoft employee.
I also heard that the applause at the Xbox One Event was fake.
Because of the BestBuy incident and the fake applause incident, Microsoft has gained much hate from gamers. They just blow them off when the Microsoft employee would tell them to buy a Xbox One.
The reasons people don't want to buy an Xbox One? No backwards compatibility, the requirement of broadband to play ALL games... That alone is already a stick in the mud.
Not only that, the employees are targeting the WRONG market. Seriously people, we're talking about Nintendo here. They're in a league of their own. Nintendo games tend to be more family-friendly compared to Xbox and PS games. I mean, take a look at the Super Smash Bros series. It's a fighting game, yes, but it isn't as rough as the likes of Mortal Kombat, Street Fighter and Soul Calibur. And though I can be considered a video game junkie and a fan of fighting games, my favorite fighting games are Super Smash Bros Brawl and Dissidia Duodecim, and Super Smash Bros Brawl is easier to pick up and play. I spent a lot of time in Dissidia, trying to link Zidane's Meo Twister with the Kuja Assist I set him up with, then connect by going behind the opponent (press X when the prompt shows), then hitting him with another Meo Twister. It's all in good fun (and the feeling of accomplishment when you get a combo done), but if you're looking for a game that's simpler than that, Super Smash Bros Brawl is the game.
If you're going to sway customers to buy your console, Microsoft, target the Sony market. They have similar games as to yours. Besides, Nintendo fans are VERY loyal. The only consoles I have played on is the PS1, PS2, GBA, NDS lite, NDSi, NDSiXL, Wii, and PSP. Note that more than half of them are Nintendo consoles. Practically all the games I have come from producers producing for Nintendo consoles, whether exclusively or not. Pokemon, Mario Kart, Super Smash Bros, Sonic, Tetris, Puyo Puyo, Final Fantasy, Kirby, Picross, BlazBlue, Shin Megami Tensei, TWEWY... I don't play Call of Duty or Counterstrike. I just can't play on a computer. Besides, all the good games are all on the consoles. Final Fantasy, Pokemon, Mario, The World Ends With You, anyone? The scores for these games are usually at the 90% range.
On another note, even though I am not that good in Business though I take it for the IGCSEs, I can tell what Microsoft is doing is NOT proper business conduct. There are better ways to market your product, but bad-mouthing your competitors will get you NOWHERE. The Xbox One was considered a step back for some of the people I've seen on Deviantart. It costs MORE than the PS4 and Wii U, promising quality through its pricing strategy but...the company already gained a bad image through the fake applause stunt, and now this.
One thing's for sure though. Games for the Xbox aren't really my cup of tea. I play Nintendo games usually. The most mature game I've ever played might be BlazBlue (for all the cursing), Soul Calibur (for the armor breaks), Dissidia (for Cloud of Darkness and Ultimecia), or Shin Megami Tensei (that one scene in Persona 3's pretty gory). So, there's already a huge chance that I won't buy an Xbox One. And now, the chance got even slimmer. Way to go, Microsoft. Way to shoot yourself in the leg AGAIN and get more bad image for yourself. You know, now people are starting to think that you're a company that's all for the money and not for the gamers. You need to start realizing that what you are doing is WRONG and hopefully, HOPEFULLY, get yourself out of the hole you just dug for yourself.
Seriously, Microsoft. Smart move. I'll probably get the Wii U for the Super Smash Bros, Mario Kart and SMT X Fire Emblem. If a new Dissidia comes up, I'd probably buy it, but I'm more of a Nintendo person.
I'd LOVE to send Kuja after Microsoft. And Kuja can destroy an entire planet with an Ultima spell. Just saying.

Thursday, May 23, 2013

Random Dissidia Oneshot

Well, that was a pretty depressing post... How about a story to lighten up the mood?

This was inspired by a picture from Zerochan, in an Academy AU. Bartz is asleep on his desk, Zidane looks like he's yelling, Squall is slapping Bartz's back with a ruler, and Sephiroth was carrying a rolled-up poster and was emitting the dark aura of doom. Picture can be found here: http://www.zerochan.net/1485425
On to the story!

Warnings: This is probably rated K+. OOC (Out Of Character).

 Golbez picked up his things and left the class in silence. Most of the students proceeded to talk with each other, read or do other things. 'Thank Cosmos this next lesson is the last lesson of the day... Rather unfortunately, Sephiroth is our teacher.' Zidane thought. He had no qualms about having Sephiroth as the final teacher of the day, it's just that Cloud would make a big fuss out of it and those two would actually take out their swords and have a duel in the middle of the class. Well, Cloud hates Sephiroth, so this behavior is pretty normal in their class. And to think that students and teachers alike are not allowed to bring their weapons to school...so said swords consists of rolled-up pieces of newspaper or, on rare occasions, posters. During the first few days of school, Garland, homeroom teacher of the class, got called by the principal for bringing his HUGE broadsword into class. Squall got in trouble for bringing his gunblade. Zidane got into trouble for accidentally summoning his Mage Mashers. Firion got into trouble by bringing his bow. Kuja got called by the principal for attempting to cast Ultima on Zidane, who was annoying him to no end (brothers...). Long story short, practically EVERYONE got into trouble just because of casting some magic or summoning a weapon. Well, in their defense, manikins were still roaming around, so they bring weapons for protection. The rule doesn't apply once you are out of the school building, which is why Lightning and Squall always spar right in front of the school building, with a huge space, perfect for sparring matches.
This particular day, Bartz was feeling extremely sleepy and decided to get a little bit of shut eye. Golbez had left the class with 5 minutes of free time, so the students were slightly relieved to have a little bit of down time before Sephiroth came by.
'Let me sleep for just 5 friggin' minutes...' Bartz thought. He was out like a light soon after.
In front of Bartz, Zidane was talking to Tidus about the Blitzball club's next match. The coach is Jecht, who also happens to be Tidus's father.
"I'm just hoping we can win." Tidus muttered.
"With a coach like Jecht? I would be surprised if we actually lost!" Zidane exclaimed.
"True." Tidus sighed.
Meanwhile, behind Bartz, Squall was trying to calm Cloud down.
"I just hate Sephiroth with every fiber of my being." Cloud growled.
"Whatever, Strife. You have NO idea how bad Ultimecia can be." Squall gave Cloud a pointed look.
"As bad as Ultimecia can be, I KNOW Sephiroth is worse." Cloud replied heatedly.
Squall groaned. This wasn't the first time they had this argument.
"Let's just drop it, alright?"
"Whatever, Leonhart."
5 minutes have passed, and Sephiroth still hasn't entered the class, which caused the class to stay silent in shock for a while. Said silence was broken by the sound of someone snoring.
"Uh, guys? Do you hear snoring?" Zidane asked nervously.
Everyone looked at Zidane and nodded. Zidane and Squall gulped nervously, took a chance and turned to look at Bartz.
Bartz Kaluser, master mime, was sleeping soundly, just before the class of Mr. Sephiroth, the strictest and scariest teacher at school.
CUE BACKGROUND MUSIC!!! (aka One-Winged Angel)
Estrans interius
Ira vehementi
Estrans interius
Ira vehementi
Sephiroth!
Sephiroth!
The latin chanting was enough to send shivers down everyone's spines. Then, as if on cue, Sephiroth was standing in the doorway of the class. He looked at Bartz, then emitted the dark aura of total doom.
Zidane and Squall, noticing this, tried everything in their power to wake up the sleeping mime. The other students were scared out of their minds, except for Cloud, who was glaring cyanide-drenched Buster Swords at Sephiroth. If looks could kill, said glare would be enough to send Sephiroth to the place where Feral Chaos lives (I'm assuming Edge of Madness) a million times over.
Zidane was whisper-yelling. "Bartz! Wake up, dang it!"
Squall, however, resorted to slapping Bartz's back with a plastic ruler, while whispering loudly, "Wake up, Klauser!"
Bartz, however, seemed unaffected. Heck, he even started drooling on his notebook which he used as a pillow!
Sephiroth summoned a rolled-up poster from Jenova-knows-where and proceeded towards Bartz. And, if Hetalia is anything to go by, poster swords are effective weapons for defeating weird aliens. Or, in this case, waking up sleeping mimes in an extremely painful way.
"Something tells me Bartz is screwed." Cloud couldn't help but snicker at his statement earlier.
"Shut it, Strife. Or I'll decide to use Blasting Zone on you until you are dead." Squall growled, malice evident in his voice before smacking Bartz again, albeit with more power.
Well, Squall, as the author, I suggest you smack harder next time, because Sephiroth just lifted Bartz out of his seat. Bartz didn't even stir from the sudden movement.
"YOU MEAN HE DIDN'T FEEL THE RULER ON HIS BACK?!" Squall growled, annoyed.
Well, no.
"WHAT!"
"Squall! Quit breaking the fourth wall!" Zidane hissed.
Sephiroth glanced at Bartz and smirked.
"Excuse me while I handle this...STUDENT...who dares sleep during school hours." Sephiroth teleported out of the classroom and returned moments later. Lessons then proceeded as normal. Well, as normal as things can get with Cloud and Sephiroth in the exact same room.
When Cloud and Sephiroth started dueling again, Zidane, Squall, Tidus and Firion shared a look. A single thought passed through all of their minds.
'Flag pole. After school. ASAP.'
~After class
The first thing Bartz noticed when he woke up was the ground, just 5 meters from where he was situated.
'Wait...the ground?'
Bartz dared himself to look up. He nearly fainted.
He was hung up by his leg from the top of the flagpole. He had the perfect view of the ground. The weather was pretty windy, which freaked Bartz out a LOT.
He couldn't take it anymore. He was terrified.
"WAAAAAHHH! SQUALL! ZIDANE! TIDUS! FIRION! ANYONE! GET ME DOWN! I'M SCARED OF HEIGHTS!"
The four students heard Bartz's screams from in front of the school. The genome was the one who yelled back.
"JUST HANG IN THERE, BARTZ!"
Squall then told Zidane to try and climb the flagpole. Tidus only stood speechless as he looked at Bartz. Firion only shook his head as Bartz screamed his head off.
Apparently, Sephiroth waxed the flagpole, since Zidane had difficulty trying to climb it, slipping every few steps.
Tidus then looked at his watch. "See you guys tomorrow at the arcade. I got Blitzball practice." Tidus then ran towards the beach, trying his best to ignore Bartz's terrified shrieks. Firion headed to the archery center. "Archery practice. I'll see you tomorrow." He left without further discussion. In reality, Firion just couldn't take any more of Bartz's shrieks of terror.
"Hey, Zidane, try throwing those knives of yours at the rope." Squall whispered into Zidane's ear. Zidane only nodded as he summoned his Mage Mashers. He threw one towards the rope, severing it...
Causing the mime to plummet face-first into the ground.
"I'm okay..." came Bartz's muffled reply, then came a moan of pain from the mime.

EXTENDED ENDING:
"So...Bartz, I've been meaning to ask you something..." Zidane started as the three friends were walking back home.
"What? My head hurts..." Bartz groaned.
"Why are you scared of heights, man?"
"ONE. WORD." Bartz growled, anger suddenly lacing every word he uttered. "EXDEATH."
"Alright! Yeesh!" Zidane held his hands up in defeat.
"And...Exdeath is a tree, right?" Squall asked.
"An evil, warlock tree, to be exact." Bartz sighed.
"At least your nemesis isn't a time witch." Squall growled, recalling Ultimecia.
"Or your brother who left you in some unknown planet when you were young." Zidane hung his head, while the other two friends were struck speechless.
"Kuja did that to you?" Squall asked.
"I thought we were talking about why Bartz is scared of heights!" Zidane shot back.
"True. But the rest is self-explanatory. Trees grow high so Bartz is scared of heights." Squall replied in his bored tone.
"Guys... Don't remind me of the reasons why I'm scared of heights..." Bartz groaned.
The three decided to let the subject drop and focused on more important things; mainly, how they are going to finish the project Exdeath set to be due next month, when they have a truckload of homework from Sephiroth and the self-proclaimed Emperor Mateus. Every. Single. Day. Memorizing the many types of Materia and the history of the Palamecian Empire was not a simple task, you know!
Zidane, Bartz and Squall, along with Tidus, Firion, Cloud and Luneth simultaneously groaned as they, somehow, thought of all the tasks they had to complete for the remaining term at, somehow, the exact same time. How exactly? I have absolutely no idea. It's one of the mysteries of the universe.
"This is going to be one long term..." Said students groaned while doing something to release some of their stress.
Tidus started taking his practice more seriously. Firion decided that archery was NOT going to cut it and decided to beat the snot out of some Emperor Mateus manikins instead. Squall decided to thunk his head on the trunk of a tree multiple times, muttering about the evils of the world. Zidane and Bartz decided to spar with each other. Cloud decided to crush some Sephiroth manikins, just for the heck of it. Luneth decided to punch his pillow to release stress (when questioned, he claims that his method works).
Just another normal day for Zidane...

A/N: Okay, I have been playing too much Dissidia lately. And yes, I'm a HUGE fan of Zidane, as well as 589 in general. What can I say? I love the genome's personality and his gameplay style. Ever since I was introduced to fighting games, I'm more of an aerial and speed person, which is why I main Ness in SSBB. His air game is great, and his attacks come out quick as well, with okay KO power. Zidane has a lot of BRV to HP links. It's easy to spam Meo Twister on a high-level manikin in Confessions of the Creator and see where it goes from there. And personality wise, remember this line? Basically this quote of his became one of my mottoes.
"Do I need a reason to help someone?" -Zidane

I'm thinking of the owner of Final Fantasy. Starts with an S, ends with an X. That's right! It's Squeenix! Or Square Enix, whichever you prefer. I own nothing but the plot (because if I owned Final Fantasy, then Final Fantasy 9 would be remade on the PSP or something)!
This is also my very first fan fiction, so comments would be appreciated!

What the heck am I doing?! It's exam week! I have to study! Well, exams last until next Monday, so... UGH.

Friday, April 19, 2013

Just some random crap about me.

Hello world! It's been a few years since I made this blog and I feel that this introduction needs an update, since I've changed a lot since then...

So, here you go!

Name (aka what I'd like you to refer to me as)

Raiko or AoiSenri. Any of those.

General stuff about me

- I'm taking the IB Diploma, and I'm in the process of writing my Extended Essay (on psychology, no less!) AND am currently thinking of IA ideas for Physics and Business, so please forgive me if I don't update this blog often.
- I'm one of the guys so it's no wonder if I'll remain single for a VERY long time.
- KirinMax, my brother from another mother, seems to be convinced I'm a tsundere, based on my reactions towards him whenever the topic of my crush (who I'm quite close with) comes up. I beg to differ.
- I'm a dark person. 
- I NEED all the facts you can give me before I can make a sound judgement. I don't let my emotions run the show most of the time.
- Sexual innuendos fly over my head, but show me stuff like that and most likely you'll scar me.
- I'm shy in real life, but get to know me and I can chat your ear off.
- I smile a lot near people I'm comfortable with. 
- If I'm not smiling, then it either means I'm deep in thought, or I'm angry, annoyed, pissed, or just DGAF. It is not wise for you to tease me in times like this because I will SNAP and feel no remorse.
- I'm the only Physics girl in my class, as well as being the youngest in class.
- I'm a bit on the antisocial side.
- I have a crush on one of my classmates (not gonna say who he is, maybe his name's written here?), but I don't care what he does as long as he's happy and what he does is what he feels is the best decision for him. :)
- I used to be bullied and I was painfully quiet and shy, but people such as KirinMax, Jen, Mel, Mike, Melina, and David have been slowly moving me out of that phase, whether they know it or not. I'm really thankful to have friends like them. ^^
- This smile of mine can be either genuine or a mask. Can anyone differentiate it, I wonder?

Hobbies

Drawing, listening to music, playing video games, reading, watching anime/Youtubers, talking with friends and hanging out with them, people-watching, stargazing, singing (when no one is watching), learning about human behavior, making (sucky) translyrics

Likes

J-RPGs, puzzle games, rhythm games, good food, learning about other cultures, tea, chocolate milk, psychological-horror manga/anime, tragedies, dark Vocaloid songs, Tokyo Ghoul, Persona series, Tales of series, J-Rock, rock music in general, Vocaloid, Utaite, Danganronpa, Corpse Party, Higurashi, Kagerou Project, myths and legends, and many others~

Dislikes

Onions, bell peppers, beating around the bush, speaking in public, stupid Internet trends (#cut4insertcelebrityname comes into mind). I am actually a very tolerant person.

I hate racists, people who stereotype, judgmental people, vengeful people, bullies, people who blow things out of proportion, unforgiving people...

Bottom line: If you judge people without trying to understand their situation or their train of thought, more than likely I won't have a high opinion of you. What pisses me off more are unforgiving people and people who hold grudges.

Random Vocaloid crap~

Top 5 Favorite Male Utaites

1. Soraru
2. Mafumafu
3. Amatsuki
4. Touyu
5. Shounen-T

Top 5 Favorite Female Utaites

1. Guriri
2. Hanatan
3. Akiakane
4. 96neko
5. Wotamin

15 Favorite Songs (mostly covered) (no particular order)

1. unravel (Tokyo Ghoul OP), particularly Touyu's cover
2. No Logic, esp. MafuTsuki's cover
3. Tousou Honnou, Mafumafu's cover
4. ItaiAtashiAshitaAitai, Mi-chan's cover
5. you (Higurashi no Naku Koro ni image song), particularly vipTenchou's cover
6. Ikanaide, JubyPhonic's English cover
7. Life is Only Full of Goodbyes, Amatsuki's cover
8. glow, Glutamine's cover
9. Terror, Mafumafu's cover
10. Enmei Chiryou, Soraru's cover
11. Self-Inflicted Colorless, Mafumafu's cover
12. This is the Happiness and Peace of Mind Committee Speaking, Soraru's cover
13. Arifureta Kanashimi no Hate, Eli Ayase single from the Muse album 'Soldier Game'
14. Ayano's Happiness Theory, IA original and just about every cover
15. Crime and Punishment, Amatsuki's cover

Sunday, March 3, 2013

Need help with my Pokemon White 2 team...

Okay, before anyone asks, I don't bring my Pokemon from other versions into my copy of Pokemon White 2, I don't do online play, and I can't trade from other versions since pretty much all of my friends and family rarely play/don't play Pokemon anymore. OH! And I am really lazy to call Curtis. I don't even understand how the phone works with him anymore. -__-"
Oh, and first post not about my school work! Achievement much?
So, I was playing Pokemon White 2 earlier and noticed that I have a lot of Pokemon weak to Fire-type attacks.
My team when I realized that:
Weavile (53)
Lucario (78)
Crobat (79)
Metagross (78)
Cofagrigus (65)
Milotic (78)
So, I swapped Weavile out with Tyranitar (78). AND THEN I noticed Milotic doesn't learn a whole variety of moves, it already has 2 HM moves, for crying out loud! So I decided to train the Golduck (44) I evolved from the Psyduck I caught back in Flocessy Ranch. AND NOW I noticed that if I go against someone who mains Special Attack, I'm screwed.
So, does ANYONE have any suggestion on how to swap my party around so that it becomes a little bit more balanced? Please? Any help is appreciated. Thank you in advance.